2.52

they put muffle bug 

down the drain ... n my gums are too sore two clean them ... 

ere we go 

ere we go were we go  

ear wig 0   . ... 






2.33am 

her little legs wriggling 

an she gurgle at him n glug n coo 

n she have all dribble down her chin 




2.22am 



n Scarey took his baby 

back out of her pram ... n she make little owl noises ... 

1.08.13.

1.30am

i thought they are going to

snatch that email in a minute

n sure enough the page turned itself ....

23.19

there are still four videos being withheld 

depicting a woman crying in her 

bedroom ... 

23.14

ok ok i wont say its a lucky t shirt then 

i am going to wear it ... 

22.52

mull making bath mould 

22.46

22.43


also browser very slow due to uploading problems 

22.29


she be gone vey long time .... 

she love Scarey vey much n hears magic roundabout tootling round head ... 

n Scarey was in charge of the situation today for a change ... 

22.22

vids wont go through cross platform 

sound files grossly slow .... 

21.41

gross abuse of a corpse 


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gut wrenching 

20.59

the movies i put up today didn't go through 


and the sound files are moving very slowly ... 

to the British Psycological Society 

i was just working through some stuff in a 12 step programme 

you know when you do your inventories and stuff 

and i found myself examining again my complaint about .................

who counselled me about 12 years ago 

and who said something about 'hiring a stud' 

and I'm not saying i regret making the original comment 

its just the way i did it contained unconscious racism ... 

and actually i missed out on the idea that she was joking with me and trying to help ... 

**************

admittedly i was on alot of medication at the time 

and i missed the point that she is actually quite open about sex 

in various ways that were i to meet her now i would proably appreciate ! 

**************

my sponsor thought it would discredit me to write this 

and another friend felt otherwise 

i don't see why it should i did a psychology course , GCSE level actually 

and what i remember most from it was the need to dismantle your own theories ... 

so yeah ... apologies for the tone in which it was 

written ... and i kind of drew up a picture of her i think ....  hopefully which hasn't affected her too much ... 

yours sincerely 

lobster tails n stuff 

n he rolls over 

if only he had the name 

oh yeah that exorcists 

he came round with these huge 

black and white candles 

to clear Foxes place 

n he said the reason i don't 

clean up is because I'm cleaning the atmosphere .... 

an im flushing my meds down the toilet ... 


n blades clashing 

the air like cymbals making a toast ... 

n taking up less space 






14.17

Ben is thinking of sending 

someone abusive to the sex addicts meeting 

he thinks i owe him money ... 




13.25

mulligan is making 

mouldy bath fumes 




12.34

n she gasp 

at sparking sword 

n tries to run 

n this sword hanging in the air  

a searing mark like the line from a grill 

n you couldn't get back ... 



n there this 

cave with sheets 

of blue rain in the cave explodes  

n bits of stalactite n stuff un luminous green 

icicles n shells n things all going flying n crabs n etc ... 

an this blue light reflecting itself 

like a sheet of air making 

a guillotine mark 

on the beach 

9.30am  310713 

n she see to ornette n 

he remind her ... 

cus they were much more 

concerned about the dangers of of growing a second pair of eyes  ... 








and the geeks will be proper geeks 

n trildren will choose carefully 

what to watch on their 

hour of telly 

n we were actually 

hosting a soft toy olympics 

n it was not good enough for my mother 

on an outdoor holiday ... 




n we actually went on a dangerous fishing trip 

to appease her ... n they never batted 

an eyelid about you being 

out of sight in the woods 

n then to go youth hosteling at 13 

wearing just shorts and bras and stuff 

n all they were concerned about was the rain ... 

n my grandmother as well 

would shout if we 

were not playing and creating stuff ... 

n would even cry ... 

playing indoors you could do that in a box 

in Neasden ... I've brought you all the 

way to Pontins for this ... 

expensive chalet n stuff 

now get the fuck out and enjoy yourselves 

n she would really shout ... 


********************



n its funny ou know 

my mother used to insist that we play ... 

n preferably outdoors ... 

you got your talk about flashers n stuff 

n how she dealt with it in her day 

n then were forced outside ... 

enders is clutching my sound files 

like my utterances are the 

last hope of a drowning man ... 








3.48am 

00.11am 31.07.13.

00.02..


thankyou Scarey darling 

she miss Scarey vey much ... 

n has new friend too .... 

n she not see Scarey vey long time 



n they drug her tay 

23.40



enders and Chucky are working 

their way through my cd collection 

and picking off the artists 

something they did in 2008 ... 

n why i left the internet ... 

23.35

she's hungry because 

the food poisoning made her throw up .... 

20.11

jealousy wallis is putting viruses down my drains .... 

don't know how anyone gets 

to be bored i mean I'm just really struggling all the time .... 

19.39

more germs 

coming up the drains ... 

the fib are annoyed that i have a recording device .... 

19.25

wearisome enders withholding sound files ... 

n the jealous neanderthal is posting viruses through my window 

as if i havent had enough today ..... 

18.55



choppy bollocks is doing that pulse thing again ... 

18.50



it is a very beautiful album ... 

its not really sexual in the same way as your stuff with Trashew ... 

n the robot last night was about you pulling the 

wool over my eyes ... 

you're bored your not writing a wolverine funk opera ... 

n you see me as a parent ... 

vault

you can't see it 
refractive curvature
depending on the root 
permittivity happening 
with translucent material 
like floating blob of wine
unchanged by the speed 
carried without repeaters
diverging over distance
orb invisible light beam 
transmission speeding
impercievable wave
disembedded bit
from the prism 

4.05.06.

18.08


authors little teatime jogging subliminal ... 

////////////

17.26

I've just been assaulted 

and drugged again 

and i can't get away from the fib n joseph fritzle 

Scarey doenst give a shit as long 

as he gets an ice cream wank made from my blood ... 


**********

my brother needs to do some rehab 

for his smack addiction 

he stinks ... 

17.02



i could probably 

think of about twenty different 

permutations other than just open it or don't open it ... 




nb Choppy Bollocks is outside slamming car doors 

as is the entities wont ... 

16.05




you're a world leader 

and you're doing that because you're bored ... 

n this is all very entertaining ... I'm not going to be 

able to get away from Joseph Fritzles military machine am i ... 

n football gets painful 

with people getting injuries n stuff  

it use to be an art 

form you know like with Goege Best n that ... 

n like with tennis 

it was an art form with Mcenroe 

n not all about winning 

Scareys chest is heaving 

like a bir ... 

wiv broken rib cage n all fevvas all glued to it .... 

or is at mine .... 

11.42

this seems to say 

no word 

at the beginning ... 

https://soundcloud.com/user843456107/song-250613

its the one they chose as a default setting


*************

n yeah Alfred is way too cute 

n Scarey has commanding authority 

n i dunno you gotta take 

that off him ... or what we are 

in a relationship it doesnt go away that easy ... xxx

n he's very Scarey - like ... 

11.24am 

they've decided 

to alternate bugs n chemicals 

*******
n i just about got time to eat shoot n leave ... 

n Chucky is good 

on components 

n is well versed in his Irish side .... 


n he's my son 

so i should know ... 

n he's sitting there he has pulled 

out your nuts n bolts right 

n is busy rearranging them to his liking .... 






n its feels good 

yeah sure it does he very talented like that .... 

n the drug becomes bigger than the person  

n bigger than the feelings that were 

its source ... 


n its what they call cheating emotionally 

in that alot of emotion is being 

invested elsewhere ...

n again that its naughty or bad isn't really the point ....  






3.37am 

n wants wrong with your drug

its not that its wrong ... 

its just an illusion if you understand 

the components     

you know like when you give up a substance 

n you think ah i see 

now i can rearrange the components 

into something better ... 

is like that 

n if you don't understand the components ... 

in fact Scarey 

can be quite concerned about 

your body n stuff as if he knows wants 

goind on in there .... 







n theres no reason 

why the self love of narcissism 

can't embrace little rabbits n squirrels on the way home 

n I'm trying to find this 

Sterephonices song where hew wanking in a field of cows .... 

3.15am 

that pulse thing is now 

inaudible ... just a vibration 

so that other people wont notice 

unless they know where is coming from 

i suspect linked to Choppy .... 

n Choppy oddsnt reallly do any maths at all 

just lashes fists ....  

Scarey doenst see the need to 

be macho about things 


n confident in his person hood 

n good at relating to females 



***************

n you're a wanking softie 

n all puddled n stuff 

n vey cute ... 







n someshting dribbles under the door  

n a sign of the times 

that peeps are at home 

wanking in front of their computers ... 

n i don't mean it derogatory 

cus is made some really nauseating music .... 

at least we got the wanking championships 

it makes people a bit more animated 

wanking marathons n festivals 


n wanking has other uses as well 


3.01am 

n obviously there is a link between 

wanking and narticism  ... 

just arrogance 

self obsession and narcisism all sounds like music to my ears ... 

like theres actually someone 

out there in space .... 

n children will be allowed 

one hour of telly 

or internet ... one hour ... 

or maybe two if you didnt have much homework 

your four eyes time was 

severely restricted and you didn't mind 

in fact it made sense that you have to go out 

and make camps 

n puppets n stuff ... 





( n yes i am eating this awesome red rice and tuna at 2.30am 

which is maybe a bit odd ... ) 

in fact i was sneaking about the kitchen 

tryng to do it quietly ...