Sunday 30 June 2013

n Scarey n i wuld panic about our 
other peeps n have the most 
devastating rows ... 

n theres nowt more terrifying than 

an actor playing himself ... 






23.40 




http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oPcWdrpp1cI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Zsjq0QFrpIE

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2sdKdOTbpD0

perhaps Scarey would like to be in a trildrens story as well some time .... 





22.50 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PVZvIsaxByE

only trouble is every time i visit your Twitter 

your going on about your ex wife .... 

thats not the same as my being a journalist about it .... 

not really sure what you are trying to do there to be honest .... 

investigative journalism is what you called it ... 

um no its stuff you told me 

and that I'm just about intelligent to notice 

that she steals everything that comes out of my 

heart soul and fanny and presents it to you on a silver platter 

n it does take a while for these things to sink in ... 

your other stuff is that you felt you didn't get enough 

attention from your dad ... 







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n its ok i can still do the Narnia thing as well that 

is about the one area i can multi task  



















pollystyrene
As a secular atheist, can I hereby request my death takes place with a decent soundtrack. I'm thinking some 70's/80's funk and disco and some Northern Soul, with a soupcon of Morrissey/Smiths (I've changed my plea to guilty, There is a light that never goes out) and some Half man Half Biscuit for light relief.
No religious types droning on about the meaning of life and no Rolling Stones either. Ta

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trust trashew to maggot my idea for the day ... 

um there is only children in there not military thugs .... 

your mother didn't love you when you were first born 

i know the feeling you are an unwelcome intrusion in my life as well .... 

types of shock 

cardogenic , neurogenic , anaphylactic , 

obstructive , endocrine , 

hypovolemic 





21.46


n that moose moans an glugs in great gulps 

its face n lips all blistered in need 

of plastic surgery ... 

the magpie is laughing and the walls 

have started to melt 

leaves like made of iced 

ginger bread 



21.03

n yeah the sky has gone 

all pink n blue 

n aliens with radiation burns 








20.51 


n some people you goes to Narnia 

or Never Land 

and then theres this .... 








an theres only trildren in them places .... 












20.25


so i never made it to Mexico 

n I did go to Never Never land ... 











Her older brother Edmund, who had been particularly spiteful about her story, enters the wardrobe and in his search of her he meets a lady who introduces herself as the Queen of Narnia. She enchants him with magical Turkish delight

While the conversation about Aslan is in full swing, Edmund sneaks away to the White Witch's house. He finds her castle filled with stone statues – enemies she has turned to stone


Aslan welcomes the children and the Beavers to his camp, but Peter is shortly engaged in his first battle, killing Maugrim, chief of Witch's Secret Police, to rescue Susan. Aslan's forces rescue Edmund just as the Witch is about to kill him

The Witch approaches in truce to parley with Aslan, insisting that, according to "deep magic from the dawn of time", she has the right to execute Edmund as a traitor. Aslan speaks with her privately and persuades her to renounce her claim on Edmund's life. That evening, Aslan secretly leaves the camp, but is followed by Lucy and Susan. Aslan has bargained to exchange his own life for Edmund's. The Witch ties Aslan to the Stone Table and then kills him with a knife. The following morning the Stone Table is broken and Aslan is restored to life, explaining to Lucy and Susan that "deeper magic from before the dawn of time" (which the Witch did not know about) will restore to life an innocent killed in place of a traitor

Aslan allows Lucy and Susan to ride on his back as he hurries to the Witch's castle. There he breathes upon the statues, restoring them to life. Peter and Edmund lead the Narnian army in a battle against the Witch's army. The battle goes against the Narnian army until Aslan arrives with the former statues as reinforcements. The Narnians rout the Witch's army, and Aslan kills the Witch.
The Pevensie children are named kings and queens of Narnia: King Peter the Magnificent, Queen Susan the Gentle, King Edmund the Just, and Queen Lucy the Valiant. Several years later, the siblings, now adults, go hunting for a white stag. They see the lamppost and go towards it. Just beyond the lamppost, branches become coats. The siblings are back in the wardrobe in the Professor's house and find that they are children again









18.40

NUTKIN WILL YOU GET YOUR CUNT SHIT SPAM 

PROPAGANA AWAY FROM MY WINDOW 

PLEASE I HOPE YOU GET SOME MORE 

POLYPS 





HE HAS CHILDREN SCREAMING OUTSIDE MY WINDOW 

TRYING TO PROP UP TRASHEWS WEAK LITTLE ORGASM 

THEY ARE FROM CUNT RITUAL ABUSE 




18.30









17.59



you don't want to know 

what happened on the Greyhound bus 

its a long way from justification 









29.06.13. 

trying to persuade 

the girls to come to sex addict meetings 

it isn't rude .... 











17.15


Nutkin is doing his little routine 

with joggers and football bounces ....  










2pm 

Bo Peep Hill by Veronica Van Eijk 


bromegrass timothy couch and creeping red fescue 

birdsfoot grosswort hawksbit and trefoil 

trampled and crushed underfoot with equal distain 

as wearily over the brow of bo peep hill i toil 


stop to rest and defecate 

add more methane to the atmosphere 

swallow the cud bring up another to chew 

tail swishing  flies away tongue flicking up a nostril musing 


I've never seen friesland although i am a fresian 

below the farmhouse tucked in the crease of hills 

unchanged though the time i have known it 

people come and go one sitting making images of me 

ruminating on the meaning of these things reflecting 

through the eye of this beholder 










16.44

Claire is withholding the cow poem

ok i will write it then ....

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Fritzle lottery warning







2pm 

sniffing about 

i would investigate your bins 

they are very exciting i smells fish bones 

n is tay crunch .... 

n i would lick my paws 

n clean mysel my tong is tay scratchy 

n i would people have me and tend me 

n i is tay lovely little creature 



n i would catch those little animals 

nem is tay irritating to me 

n i would get em 

n people to leave me is 

tay rude 















16.28

NUTKIN IS HARRASSING ME OUTSIDE MY HOME 

WITH NEWS OF TRASHEWS ORGASMS 











9.22am

ogling boggle eyed crusty claire is witholding photos from

photobucket

fritzle has put up a salad lottery raffle thrill




butterflies 


she smokes her hand  

n whats with these oriental images coming up 



theres one that has melted lips 

from radiation 

the breath coming in jabs 

an at the beginning she looks like 

a dead person 


a hara kiri moment perhaps 
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an to the right theres like 

a male silhouette with man boobs ... 

the dribbling delirium of battle shock 

n stages of shock n grief  

interspersed with more denial 

n she's gotta keep running 






n she stiffens n 

clenches her teeth 




in some shots i look like a soldier not 

sure if he's amerian or vietnamese 

n this light makes me look a bit oriental 

complete with torture hood

n flags hanging up behind 




n i start thrusting on the chair 





i look like I'm having a 

silver bullet dug out of me 






5.25am 

or a boil being lanced 

by someone else 

or a really bad splinter 

n theres a face there from like the Scream film .... 
n birds were ringing n pecking me 

an i was horrid to him 

n the echoes of that pain singing round my head 

n bouncing off the walls ... 










Saturday 29 June 2013



i gulped hard 



an they circled into a flock of crystal birs 


n scattered into the sun


glinting as their silhouettes broke up 


in the fractured light 



n the jabs of crystal teeth swirled into a 


circle wreath an cut my head 


n i deserved it 





someone threw the lovely quartz ball 


at my skull n it broke 


through the bone  


n buried deep 





7.46am 


n there was just birds there 


singing to me ... an 


sharp jabs of Scarey pain 


a necklace of chirps n chips 


n twittering round my head like a shattered crystal 







7.19am

Claire is withholding my sound file






5.06am 

Joseph Fritzle has issued a lottery warning  

7.04am 

another lottery warning 











n all shattered chest like crystal fragments 

of chest n Scarey heart panting 

with worry n i is snare 







n i loved Scarey so much an i see like 

Scarey chest when hurt it heave 

like a bir not always crying 

just heave like a bir 

chest when it 

jerks upwards n you can 

see the hurt in the rib cage 

n Scarey face like that whippet 

is jus too much 




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n i get clubbed in the chest and 

can take no more 

n I'm far away 

n all performancey stuff 



4.56am 

thankyou Scarey 

I'm feeling very shy now Scares 

with this throat business 

n i make bad noises n Scarey flies away 












an i saw that clowning it a bit 

like sex addiction in a way 

is like theres some sort of performance 

even if it doesnt feel like it if your clowning around like a 

little kid i could be responding to something 

that isn't really me 











3.21am 

i could swear an owl 

just replied to me 





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n i gushed like a fountain 

with my make up all running 

and people handing me tissues n stuff 

an asking me to speak 

n the tears make fronds of light 

that helps to ease the pain 

n the sobbing comes in convulsions 

your chest heaving and retching 

n all runny nose n stuff 

an your hair all wet and drooping 

like its raining 

n the memories an flashbacks 

like painful treasures like lost children 

reaching up their arms 

n all the love pouring down your face 

as you hold them 






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n the electricity in the other room was 

like an emotional charge that 

had me flat on the floor 



































stomach-churning emotions



20.18





n this is going to be going 

on for a while that i try to leave Scarey 

and can't do it n those feelings aren't over yet 


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n thats my higher power is it 

my neighbour coughing on purpose 

right next to my wall ... 


n you get attacked by America its your fault ... 

n nothing to do with someones emotional hygiene problem 

sharing dirty needles .... 



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it makes a weird light 

like they say a caustic romance 

n i feel Scarey pain an i never wanna hurt Scarey .... 

n yeah i get the bear attack .... 



29.06.13. 9pm 


totally out of my skull with that crying 

a huge snake of pain 

that just keeps on growing 

n you can test yourself with physical pain too 

I forgot about it 

is someone is burning your arm it gets to a point 

where your gonna start shouting ... 


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n I've been written in 

to this incredible novel  .... 

an what if the character walks out of the book   ... 

n I've gotta say the right lines ...   

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an who's in charge 

you or the seagull ... its ok 

as long as you don't really engage with 

them an make eye contact an stuff its like woah ... 

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n i was with Chucky on this giant moth 

n he dangled over to look down 

an slid off the wing  

an there was just three people 

left on the planet